RIP

Papa Flavio died today. He was having so much trouble breathing that I'm glad he can finally rest. He held on for so long.

Tons of family were in the room with him when he went. I'm glad I was here in time to say goodbye. Mama Chachi was a wreck. I've never seen someone in such agony. They were together for 65 years....I can only hope I get to spend that much time with David, and I can already understand why she was screaming in sadness....I would do that with David even now....but I couldn't imagine sitting there while he was dying....at all...I pray no one with a dear true love never has to go through that.

Still in Kingston for the week. I think the funeral is Thursday. Gonna be a long week... glad I'm with my family

back in Onterrible

I don't really WANT to be here....but I didn't have a choice...
my grandfather is dying so my dad brought me back with him from his Vacation to Victoria....
I'm terribly unhappy being here...I'm so tired b/c of the red eye flight. I'm bored....and I miss David so much....

We're all just waiting now...I'm here until next Saturday..

It's amazing to see my family...I didn't think I would see anyone for another year...
but I just abandoned the life I was in the middle of living back in BC and that bugs me....

I can't just drop everything and fly back everytime someone gets sick or dies...This is the first big family death so I'm ok with it....I would be better if David was here I think....

In other news:
We're moving to Vancouver way sooner than we thought. Like...2 weeks. I have to get my work transfer so I might be here longer but as soon as I can get it, and we get a home...we're gone!

I'm excited...but wish I was there to get the planning underway....

I don't want to go to sleep yet, despite being exhausted.....

Miss home :(

SHAWZAM

Wow...been some time

My bike arrived. It's lovely! It's in the shop now though getting tuned up :(.

My running is coming along great. I'm up to 9 minutes run 1 minute walk two times. Two more weeks and I'll be doing 4K!

Then I'm doing the 5 K class.

I decided to switch my goal jacket to the end of the 5K course when it will be cold. I'm getting a waterbottle pack for the completion of my learn to run :D

David and I are on a budget now....I don't like it...It's like all the fun is sucked out of life. We have to check with each other if we want to buy anything, and keep all our receipts. AUGH. Talk about lower class....vomit....Hopefully I get a real job and can loosen up on this budget a teeeeennny bit....sigh. Our pre marriage counselor recommended it. I understand WHY, doesn't mean I like it. Otherwise the counselling is going well. We're learning to fight...which is something we need. We fight mean and dirty. I don't like it at all.

My dad is coming to visit in a month. I can't wait!!!!! Speaking of. Make sure you spend time with your dads on Sunday....because I can't :(

Anyway. Back to reading

This month's book of recommending is The Hour I First Believed by Wally Lamb


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UPDATE

so yes
it has been a while

Updates in the world of me
I've started a learn to run course.
In 8 more weeks I should be able to run 20 minutes...and if I do I get this!

http://www.shop.runningroom.com/product_info.php?products_id=3060

but in lime, the stupid link won't let me show just the image. It's a great goal though b /c I really want it.

Very exciting.

I also bought this to motivate me during my running. It was so hard with the big bulky video on an arm strap...this just snaps to my hat!

Which gives me more motivation

And I'm getting physiotherapy for my ankles which will increase my running







ANND hopefully (pray pray) my dad will ship me his old road bike, he never uses it and it's cheaper than buying a new one!!! This is straight out of 1980 lol







So that's the biggest news. Our move to Vancouver has been bumped by a month due to David's job. But it's ok. I'm a workout machine though! And that can only be a good thing. We're still going over next week to check things out.

drowning

Life seems to be pretty lame now.


I hate my jobs and just can't find another one....not something with a purpose anyway.
The TV industry is just going under so fast. What else am I supposed to do!?

it's starting to depress my whole life. I find it so hard to find real joy in anything when I know I have no hopeful future....augh

I want this hat....or one just like it at least...I don't think the colour is right for my dark hair...either way...I hope to be good enough to make a hat like this one day...but seriously doubt it will be anytime soon...which SUCKS because I want one :(

Life goals

http://www.43things.com/person/szegarra


a neat little website to keep track :D